Thursday, March 20, 2014

And I will consider you gone

So Aiden just defriended me on Facebook. I was wondering when that was going to happen, I suppose 2+ months after going AWOL is an appropriate amount of time. It's weird, last night I was browsing around on my phone and a bunch of tagged photos of him came up on my timeline. Stupid me, clicking on them: "Damn, he was cute. Is cute. Whatever." Then, this morning, he disappeared from my FB chat list (not like I ever used it to contact him, he just showed up at the top because of the alphabetical listing), and thus I found out I'd been cut off. See? THIS is why I didn't want to accept his friend request in the first place!!!

I keep wishing I had five seconds, face-to-face with him, just to spit out, "You're a coward, you know that?!" and then turn and walk away. That, or just make eye contact, give him a hurt/dirty look, and go about my business. Just to let him know that, NO, it's not okay to just stop talking to someone and pretend that substitutes for being mature and saying, "Hey, I don't think this is going to work out. Blah blah blah." There. Closure.

On the brighter side, I've been chatting with a guy on OKCupid and he seems nice. Another one just messaged me with an actual message (e.g., talking about something we have in common and sounding normal rather than "hey sexy"), so that's promising.

Plus, tomorrow I'm leaving this frozen pit of mud to a tropical destination for six days. In times past I haven't drank on these types of outings because of my stupid fear of empty calories (another one of my many insecurities), but maybe this time I'll swap the tortilla chips for alcohol.




Post title song reference: "Gone" - Ben Folds